Jordan is 20 days old today. I
always seem to miss him a lot on the days that we don’t visit. I know that this schedule is the best for us
though. If we were to visit every day,
we would be overwhelmed. We would also
never get any of the paperwork completed or any housework finished. I think it would also be a lot harder on
Jason because he would not get the quality attention that he needs from his mom
and dad. I would so love to see baby boy
every day though. I find myself staring
at his pictures a lot. I keep asking
myself when we will start to feel normal again; but what really is normal? Sometimes
my human emotional side takes over. I
tend to stress about when things will get done and who will do them. I think I spend more time planning what to do
when than actually doing things. This is
definitely an area that I need to give over to God.
Our lovely and wonderful friend Michiko called the NICU to get our update
on Jordan today. They weighed him again
and his new weight is 15.76 ounces. He
is so close to being a whole pound! We
are so blessed. You can see the
differences in weight gain on his body.
I love that he is getting chunkier.
He is now eating 6ml of milk 8times per day. Today he was having a few issues that needed
treatment. First, his blood pressure was
low. Second, he was having difficulty
urinating. It really is a daily struggle
for him and for us. He has to fight to
live every single day. Since he is so
young, he has many risks and many things his body has to overcome. Some of these issues can continue even after
he is released from the hospital. We do
know that God has an awesome plan for his life and will use him in great
ways. We just have to trust that God
will continue to give him and us the strength to carry through. When we place all of our trust in the lord,
He will direct our paths. Mathew 19:26
says, “With man this is impossible, but with God, all things are possible.” I have held on to this verse many times and
have used it to comfort me and give me strength. My desires for Jordan are that he would be
able to overcome all of these challenges and be released from the NICU with no
lasting effects from being premature. I
desire that he would have a long and healthy life will all of the benefits that
his brother has and all of the energy that comes with being a little boy. These are my own personal desires. I can only pray that God’s plans match my desires
for his life and trust that God knows what is best.
We spent the morning sleeping in, skyping with family, and playing games
with Jason. He is getting so good at
kicking the ball. Jacob was working with
him on his soccer skills and Jason was having so much fun. He loves it when we give him attention and
when we focus on him. He needs this
attention and emotional attachment. This
afternoon, Jason let me sing him to sleep and he fell asleep in my arms. It was nice to have some cuddle time with my
big boy! Mommy needed that time more than Jason will ever know. It is so important to make your children feel
special and loved each and every day. We
tell Jason how much we love him multiple times per day. We want him to grow up knowing that he is
such a special person in our lives.
This afternoon, we went to work on some of the paperwork to register Jordan’s
birth and to get his passport ready.
There is a lot of additional work that has to be done since he was born
in a Japanese hospital. Today we did not
manage to get anything accomplished because we were just directed to different
locations each time. The main office
that we need to visit has strict hours of 9-11 and 1-2 every day. Don’t you wish that was your working
schedule?! Sometimes the military “red tape” can be frustrating. I guess that is just part of life
though. I would imagine that every
business or lifestyle would have its quirks and annoying parts.
I am so thankful for Jacob. I am so
scared about him returning to work. He still
does not have a date to return yet but I know that it is coming. It almost seems too good to be true that he
would have three weeks off with no consequences. I know that God is guiding things
though. Jacob has been such a huge
supporter and helper. I am thankful that
he is my life partner in love!
I especially want to say a prayer about Colorado today. Both Jacob’s and my families live there. Currently, there are 11 fires around the
state causing so much damage and burning many homes and so much land. We call this place home and it is devastating
to think of it being burned. Two of the
fires are pretty close to my family. My
sister was saying that her yard is covered in ash because of the fire being so
close. They are still far enough away
from the actual burning but that is still scary to think about. Please keep the people of Colorado in your
prayers and pray for rain and safety.
Lord, I want to thank you for your blessings. We are so grateful to have two amazing little
boys. We ask that you would be with
Jordan each and every moment of every day. Give him your strength and continue to work
miracles in his little body. We praise
you for his weight gain and we ask that you would heal his body of the issues
going on today. We also ask that you
would continue to touch his lungs. Help
them to mature and grow so that he may be able to come off of the ventilator on
time. We know that your plans for his
body and life are perfect. You have big
plans for him and for us. I pray that
your plans would match my desires for him to have a long and healthy life. I also pray that you would allow us to be
great testimonies to the miracles that you are doing and that many lives would
be changed through our story. We glorify
your name for this time that we have been given. Lord I want to pray for Jason. Help him to continue to be an active and
wonderful little boy. Be with his
attitude and help him to overcome those two year old tendencies. Give us patience and love as we parent. Thank you for the little moments and the time
and fun that we get to have with him. Please
be with us and give us strength to accomplish our tasks. Help us to overcome any laziness that we may
be feeling. Lord, I really and truly
pray that you would send your rain down to Colorado and wipe out those
fires. We know that your power is
awesome. Please surround your creation
with you love and grace. We pray for
safety for those fighting the fires and pray that the people of Colorado would
turn their eyes toward you during this struggle. We thank you for your grace and love. We ask all these things in your name, Amen.
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