Tuesday, July 10, 2012

32 days old!! 7-10-12


                Jordan is 32 days old today.  Today is a home day and we had a pretty good day.  I always worry a little bit on the home days because I feel like I don’t actually know what it going on with Jordan completely.  It’s a big trust test because I have to trust that God is leading the doctors and nurses in the right path and watching out for baby boy.  Our wonderful friend called the NICU for an update for us today.  Jordan’s condition is pretty much the same as yesterday.  The inflammation is still there but it is getting better.  Jordan’s breathing is much better and he is not having as many problems but he is still being treated for the inflammation and infection.  We won’t know if it was just inflammation or actually pneumonia for about a week still.  The doctors took cultures and such to grow to see if an infection is actually present.  The issue is reacting well to the antibiotics that Jordan is on so Jordan will finish the dose to ensure that the problem goes away completely.  Jordan is still being fed 8ml of milk 8 times per day.  This was deemed the maximum amount for his weight.  Once he grows more I am sure this amount will increase.  We want him to grow about 300 grams in the next 20 days.  Keep his lung progression in your prayers.  We really would love for him to be able to come off of the ventilator as soon as possible.  Hopefully the inflammation issue will pass quickly so that doctors can begin the process to wean him from the ventilator.  I also pray that God would give our sweet boy comfort and affection during the time that we are away and cannot.  It really does break my heart that I cannot give him all the comfort and love in the world.  I know that God’s timing is perfect and I will wait for my perfect moment to love on my sweet boy as much as possible!
                Today Jacob had a few appointments and meetings but Jason and I were able to just relax and take it easy.  We did a few of the normal chores that come with life such as laundry and grocery shopping.  We also did a little cleaning.  We probably should have done more but oh well.  Does the floor really have to be vacuumed twice per week? Lol!  Jason and I built a Lego tower.  I love to watch his imagination soar.  He is becoming a very smart boy.  He was making the Lego guys climb the towers with ladders and they were saving the world like super bubbas!  He makes me smile so very much! I enjoy the time that I spend with him.  I am so excited to think about having both of my boys home building Lego towers together.  These are my dreams for my family.  I want to be able to cuddle with both Jason and Jordan at the same time and watch them laugh, play, run, wrestle, sing, and be boys!  I trust that God has these moments in the plans for our lives someday! I have every desire for Jordan to overcome every single challenge.
                Jacob had a meeting today and it looks like he will be returning to work sometime next week.  As of now, he is going to be working a lighter schedule and still traveling up to Aomori with me during the week.  He needs to be available in case anything comes up with Jordan so this is why his schedule will be light.  I am so grateful for the compassion that we have received from the military on this situation.  I have never thought of the military to be a family first organization.  I have always had the idea that its mission first and then family.  God has organized things perfectly though as always and there are a lot of factors that allow Jacob to not be so important to the mission currently which allows them to give him the time off and the lighter schedule.  Isn’t God so great how he times everything so perfectly?  I am also starting my college classes again.  I actually started today.  Pray for us as we transition back into “normal” things. 
                Today I have been thinking a lot about God’s timing.  He really does orchestrate everything to be perfect for us.  So why do we still worry about things in life?  Why do we not just go with the flow and take each day as an adventure?  Why do we still wrestle with God for the power and control when we KNOW that He is much better at organizing things and doing things in our lives?  It is tough to give up our control over what is going on in our lives.  I think this is just human nature.  We want to control things  even from birth.  You know how many new born babies fight their sleep?  They try to control that part of their lives because they are afraid of missing something.  The only way to overcome this challenge is to humble ourselves daily and give up our lives to God.  To die to self daily and live for God.  It is a daily challenge.  Sometimes even a minute by minute challenge.  God gives us free will.  We have the ability to control things.  But God does it so much better than we ever could.  I challenge you to practice giving up your control and worry to God today.  Let God lead you and bless you in your day.  You will not be disappointed.
                Lord, I thank you for the blessings you have placed in our lives.  We are beyond grateful.  I ask that you would continue to strengthen Jordan.  Help him to gain weight.  Help this infection and inflammation to go away completely.  Help his lungs to develop and prepare for the weaning process.  Allow the doctors to see significant improvements that allows them to start weaning him as soon as possible.  We trust in your timing.  We have been told that medically, since Jordan will have been on the ventilator for so long, he will most likely have chronic lung disease.  We have been told that statistically this is hard to avoid for such a premature baby.  It is a good thing that we are not in the numbers business.  We trust that statistics do not really matter when God is in charge.  Nothing is impossible with you God.  We ask that you would heal Jordan’s lungs and allow him to have no lasting damage from the ventilator.  Help him to shock doctors with the success that he is showing.  Lord I pray that you be with Jacob and I as we transition back into normal activities of our lives.  Help us to keep on top of things and not become overwhelmed.  Help us to not procrastinate on our tasks and to stay ahead of the process.  Lord I thank you for Jason and his imagination and personality.  Thank you for him and the way he makes us laugh and puts a smile on our faces.  Please be with him and help him to grow into a Godly man who seeks you.  Lord thank you for the many people that you have put into our lives.  We are so thankful for our friends here that have become like family.  Without their love and assistance, we would have a much harder time.  We pray that you would speak through us and use us and our story as a testimony to you.  We ask all these things in your name, Amen.

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